My married neighbors are yelling at each other again.  These aren’t the first human pair whose voices I can hear from a couple hundred yards away.  They threaten each other with their words.

They scream as I listen to Dr Svaboda’s book Prakriti, particularly an early section.  He is explaining the Ahamkara, the “I former”.  It’s similar to ego, but different.  A different worldview of separate self from separated Divine Self.  We are all married to our I former, like our wife.  She takes care of us by discriminating what is for I and what is not for I. (So I just wanna pop in Fari!  Rastafari!). She protects us from allien substances that do not serve our greater good and personal Dharma.  In return, we take care of her with our love and protection. 

She’s like ego, but different.  She is the one who wishes to become many.  She is beyond our personal ego.  She is every Ahamkara forming I in all her desires and desired expressions.  Each of us has the gift of being our karmic expression of the One.

It’s natural to feel the separation of Prakriti with our Ahamkara.  It’s actually part of the dance to experience this separation. Feeling back into your oneness is the real treat.  The I fades away.  What I have no longer seems to matter…for the moment.  Or untill we must step back into our karma, our actions to be taken by her. 

If it is yelling at our spouse or hearing the yelling from across the meadow, then so be it.  And be with it.  Be in it.  And discern when it’s time to intervene, to intrude, or cross the lines that are drawn by our culturally appropriate understandings.  Do we stay out of it and in our own business or do we speak up and potentially get entangled in the drama.  Is it your Dharma?

I think of the Tracy Chapman song that stung my heart when it was my parents yelling at each other. https://youtu.be/fEHXyFmdVeI?si=N1DUBrjIr988PKuP